The NorMel House

"You have searched me, Lord , and you know me.  You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.  You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.  Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord , know it completely.  You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me.  Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.  Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?  If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.  If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,  even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.  If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,”  even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.  For you created my inmost being; you...

My thoughts are filled with sadness And my mind can't find a way It all just feels so heavy, Lord I don't know how to face the day. You've created us so intricate An amazing, complex design But my body is so broken Lord The pain has filled my mind I'm overwhelmed and weary I don't know what to do With heavy heart yet hopeful Lord, I can only turn to You. Mel in The NorMel House, feeling the struggle today

What does one do when they're thoughts aren't really their own? When the body isn't balanced and the mind is playing tricks on you; what do you do? Depression is one example of what I mean. Logically speaking there's nothing wrong with a person's life but the chemical balance tells you you can't deal. You can't do it, you can't go on. The mind searches for a reason for these feelings and thoughts, and you find anything to justify them. But if you are lucky enough to see what's going on you know that isn't how things really are. Yes you really feel that way - the emotions are there - but if you could take emotion out of it,  you don't actually think that. So how do you deal with those emotions? They can be overwhelming, they can be over powering, they can make everything feel black, but oh to be Spock and turn them off. I know it's possible to not listen to the ideas formed in those moments, but is there actually a way to change the chemic...