The heat of a hundred suns

The weight of a thousand worlds

The sad, slow slide into darkness.

There's no handholds in the wall

No ledge to catch me as I fall. 

My body grows numb as the light grows dim

Fog fills my mind and all focus is lost

But there's so much more. 

I have no control

Thoughts that aren't mine scream through my head

And yet, not louder than the pain. 

It pulls at every tendon

Every muscle stretched beyond its limit

Hard as rock

It never stops

And nothing ever fixes it. 

I slip down farther

My heart gets harder

The pieces left are turning to ash.

I thought when it got shattered

It couldn't get any worse. 

Every time another little heart stopped

I thought surely mine will too. 

Piece after piece, as history repeats 

I go farther into the deep. 

Melynda Hoeksema 

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